CHAPTER 4/ MY OFF CAMPUS LUNCH WAS TOTALLY OFF.. (FROWN FACE)

                                     CHAPTER 4 (FLIPPING CHAPTER 4)

                                   MY OFF CAMPUS LUNCH WAS                                
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During lunch, I was supposed to go eat inside the lunchroom with the crossing guards daughter because we had agreed to sit and hang earlier but there was a change of plans.  She must have caught up with her pals.

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I was kind of relieved in a way because I really didn’t want to go into a crowded filled cafeteria.  Filled with all them fast game peeping folks.  I knew I would not probably fit in and would get talked about anyways.  So, why bother to take that chance?  Enjoy life take chances though.  To me right now, it’s hard to do though.  (frown)  * *

Whelp, after I finished walking around the halls like a total fool who was looking for  someone to be with, I spotted my friend named Johnson Jewel! J!  He left our school last year in the middle of the year and now he’s back!  J         *  ~~  **   %%%

So glad because I really missed him a lot.  He was so kind and nice to me.  Not trying to be funny but he was white.  I gave him a hug and felt funny for hugging a white dude.  Thought someone would see me and I’d get talked about.  That is not the way to be thought.  (God thank you so much for having Johnson Jewel come back to our school.)  He is in the 10^th grade and I in the 11^th.

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I got that wrong, I came from my locker and saw him.  THEN walked around the hall like a dumb, lost, soul looking to be cool.  After I walked around, I went outside to enjoy my off campus lunch life.  Man, I did not have anyone to be with!  I so happen to spot Auzie and Amanda Reign, two Mexican, or Hispanic girls who are nice as well.  I feel sorry for the fact that I don’t know or understand what the difference is between Mexican and Hispanic people…sorry guys but no harm intended.

We all walked together they too were on their way to Taco Bell.  As the sidewalk about ended the two of them had a change of plans.  Auzie said she wanted some ice cream and so they went to Mc Donald’s.  They asked to see if I was coming with them but told them that it was okay.

It was nice of them to ask and offer but I kind of really didn’t want to walk with them all the way to Taco bell anyways because I just really wanted to be alone.  L Didn’t want to talk.  Glad they asked offered to join at least they care.  THANKS GUYS! Enjoy your ice cream; even though I don’t think you two really wanted me to come.

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Finally made it inside and did not want to spend too much money so stupid me, just ordered two hard shell tacos, no drink!  And hated that I even spent money on THAT.  Thinking about that hot school lunch right now, because it was a little cheaper than what I just spent on here at the bell.  Also, at least if I bought my lunch today at school, I would have at least gotten a drink and maybe a fruit cup or a frozen slushy cup or something…Huuum wondering it’s possible to return the food?

Joined a couple girls who invited me to sit with them.  We all ate and in a way, it was pleasant.  We three walked back to school together.  It was quiet in my world as the two of them talked.  I liked the quiet; I liked the clear skies and the warm sun on my back and the cool chilled wind brushing up against the top of my back and my skinny shoulder blades.  A chilling reminder of how I felt on a constant basis even in my dreams as I supposed slept.

I decided to take home the paper place mat that so eloquently lined the purple tray of the Taco Bell property.  This was my very first “off campus” lunch and I wanted to remember it, even though it wasn’t fun.